Monday, September 13, 2010


Okay so I know it's been a while, but with good reason. I have a baby now that takes up so much of my time. I was thinking about time today and how people use it or misuse it. I have never really been one for good usage of time. I tend to sleep all day and go to bed super late, which in turn makes me get up late... oh, the vicious cycle. I have tried to go to bed early, but then when I get up early I take a nap in the middle of my day inevitably sending me back into the same pattern of going to bed late.
Now that I have a baby it has messed me up completely and I don't know if I will ever be able to figure out a schedule for her. I don't like to misuse my time, but I can't seem to get out of this mundane rut. I have been taking photos more lately and it makes me happy to do so. I don't know if I will ever be able to do it for a living, but for now it's such a great stress reliever. So that is where the majority of my time is being spent.
Living in England allows for some unique shots that not too many people get the chance to take. I know I am blessed in that way, and I don't take it for granted too much.
Sometimes though, I do have my days (which have been a little more often than not lately) where I feel trapped in my life with no escape. That is when I need to turn back to my Lord and dwell on the blessings I have. I just wish it were that easy, because I feel like my time is short and who has time to sit and pray? I sure don't feel like I do, but then again it goes back to time misuse. Where am I putting my minutes?
Have you ever felt like you have put your life on pause and when 'the next big thing' happens that is when life will begin again. I have felt that way lately, and with time misuse, I have let the last 5 years go by without much 'living'. I feel the Lord calling back into my life to be living it more abundantly for Him. It's just hard to start living when you don't know the next step. We always want the answers now and then we will start.
I have decided to go ahead and begin living and let Him do His will...


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